I thought today would be day 1. I thought a hundred other days would be day 1 too, so no surprise there.

My husband left for a work trip this evening, so being alone with the wine left in the fridge, I had to (HAD TO) finish it. But it wasn’t even enough to call one glass, so I had to open another bottle. Then I drank it until it had a little less than a glass in it, then dumped it. So I had exactly a bottle of wine. I didn’t even feel like drinking but if there is a little left in a bottle, and you are all alone with it, you might as well finish it. And if you do that, it is definitely pointless unless you drink more. Sadly, drinking a bottle of wine did not make me feel ‘drunk’. I barely feel buzzed. This might be different if I was trying to socialize, or even parent, but right now I am alone with no demands, and I feel only slightly more buzzed than normal.

I really want to know if my life would be better without alcohol. I want to string together 100 days. I’m hoping that will give me some insight. I’m writing this blog to keep me accountable so that I actually make it to 100 days. If at that point I’m still not sure, I want to go for a year. And then I need to decide, is alcohol going to be part of my life, or no?

Obviously so much has lead up to this point. I have, however, drank a bottle of wine, so that will be a story for a different night.