Well I’ve made it to double digits!

Started off feeling good today. Slight headache when I woke up and I was like, “Hey. I’m being robbed. Why should I have any kind of headache at all?” But after a glass of water I was all good.

For some reason at the very end of the work day I got really agitated over something small. I kink of let it get under my skin. I was still irked at the grocery store where a guy in the check out line next to me was being rude to the cashiers, and I got (internally) so mad at him. I spent the whole ride home thinking of things I should have said to him to stick up for the cashiers. By the time I got home I suddenly realized I wanted a drink SO BADLY. I definitely used to angry drink sometimes. I mean, I drank for all the emotions, so that’s no surprise. I know in the past I would have had two, strong, quick drinks to numb my anger.

Instead I prepped dinner (with some extra banging of cupboards and cutting boards). Sat on the porch with my dog. Did the Wordle. And I got through to dinner time. Then I had a Zoom call set up for this committee I’m on (I think it may have been my first Zoom call with this committee totally sober, yikes!).

Now I’m typing this out, and it will be bedtime to me. Day 10 done. Whew. There are so many ups and downs. I almost wish the highs were not so high, because today’s low was nothing catastrophic, but it was such a dip from my glorious high point that it felt extra low.

So now I just need to do this, like, 9 more times. No biggie?